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Tuesday, November 29, 2005

i'm missing sch, ironic rite?... i don miss the bks and studyin hor, i miss my frens...plus, sch helps to keep me busy...now it's constant slackin
Routine:
- Watch TV
- Play PS2
- Eat
- Play Piano (seldom liao...cos i'm ...)
- learning guitar, still having alittle trouble with the pressing...fingers are so pain, esp when i bathe in hot water, ouch!
- let's not forget....QT

guitar has been fun...though i keep playin the same chords, i realised tat Guitar is abt been familiar n fast..so unlike Piano, whereby it's ur own emotions and ur control..don get it, nvm
frankly speakin, i think i'm doin quite well after onli 3days as a guitarist, but i still got lots to learn...let's start with F ... btw, paul...thx for teachin but i think i'll go learn the harder version of F

anyway, practically spent the whole day in mom's shop...intention was to have lunch but decided to dye my hair again, since the blue was fading and becoming green...however, the blue wasnt available so i dyed Dark-Blue...and the result...haiz, jus pisses me off... my hair looks like black now...abit disappointed...why cant Loreal create a dark-blue tat is more blue than black?...haha, jus jk man...afterall it's onli hair...
however, i think i'll dye a diff color soon...blue is annoyin cos everybody goes, "got meh? how come i don see?"..."so diff to see! might as well don color lor, like no diff like tat"...
erm...how abt ?

anyway, went swimming today...decided to take Mom's advice and start exercising...during the studyin period of O's, i've been the doctor's every month and keep gettin scolded by my mom...looks like i've gotta take care of myself...
swam 27 laps today, came out of the water totally breathless...guess i've lost all of my stamina...not all lah, cos i still managed to run pretty quickly for Sat's East Coast run, one of the 1st fews...it's considered very gd for me, since i've not been exercising for 3mths oredi ?
gonna go for a jog or another swim tml...see whether i get up early (i doubt) and see which part of my body is aching...haha

anyway, ciao liao!
PS: anyway free to watch Harry Potter this Thurs? ... sms or post ok?

{ 2:13 AM }

Saturday, November 26, 2005

today was svc!...yay! i love the feelin of Saturdays man!
today's sermon really didnt spoke to me alot lah, but the Altar Call really dragged me out...i guess sometimes my faith is rather roller-coaster like (must change man!) ...haha

recently, i jus submitted my PAE/ JC admission...
here's my choices:
1) VJC
2) TJC
3) NJC
4) SAJC
5) AJC
6) NYJC
7) MJC
8) TPJC
9) SRJC
i picked Sciences for all lah, i cant tahan Arts and Humanities man...

Pastor Eugene had many invitations rite? but i rmbed him saying, "to those who are experiencin big changes in ur life, in studies...etc...and u're not sure of urself"...
tat was what immediately drew my attention, for mths i have been in a dilemma whether to pick TJC or VJC as my 1st choice and it's was really weird
in the end, i went with my gut feelin...
but Shixiong was right... he told me tat if i get into VJ, then it's a blessing from Laupa, then surely everythin will work out fine and run smoothly...if i don get into VJ, it's still a blessing frm Laupa, bcos He's placing me somewhere which will definitely fulfill my purposes and plans for Him... i felt so encouraged by it, hey Xiong, thx ya!

had the Run earlier on, it's been mths since i last ran or last had PE...but it turned rather ok, at least managed to finish it...although it isnt the total thing, i was still glad...think the onli one who completed the entire run is Joce right? or Robin?...was really really tired, muscles startin to feel the tension, it's a gd start anyway...gotta start training liao, the actual Run is 10th Dec rite?...tat's 2wks away!...cant believe tat we're moving to EXPO in 2wks man, woohoo!

Lionel has lent me his guitar liao, yay!...(donno whether it's lent or give) either way, thx! gonna start learnin to play liao, tried earlier on and i suddenly realised tat it is super painful...guess i'm not used to it yet, ugh!...but i think i'll be a fast learner since i have musical background liao

ok ciao liao, needa slp man!

how come F is so hard to play?...shoot...

{ 6:10 PM }

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Chalet jus ended ... not exactly lah cos it's ending tml but most of us onli brought clothings til today...
gotta say, it wasnt as exciting as last yr's...don really know why either but it was still fun!
really gonna miss them man, donno how to find another bunch of jokers like them... i'll miss the 4yrs we spent together man (some 2yrs onli...heehee)

went there on Tues night... had some briefing regardin the PAE and JC Admission in school first, then chiong to mom's shop to dye my hair...it's blue (onli visible in strong sunlight) ...and oso cut some of my hair lor...
then immediately chiong for Aloha Changi, Chalet L (gotta rmb this man)...
i was amazed tat the place was bigger than last yr's...so much room & space, haha

Tues night was rather fun cos we played Water-Bombs...hard-core water bombs
Examples of certain Ingredients:
1) Starch
2) Coloured Dye
3) Leftover food frm the BBQ...
gross u say?... haha, guess we're quite havoc

but, people werent ENTHU...they all scared then don play, sianzz...in the end, onli afew of us played but it was still fun cos we jus sabo those who didnt wanna play as well...caused some of them to be angry as well, opps...
though it was so so fun, we had to clean up for quite some time...we dirtied the roads that were infront of our Chalet, plus it's starch leh...requires much time to scrub it all off the road

then we washed up and headed towards Changi Village?...anyhow say cos i'm not too sure, i onli know tat area sold Cheng Tng!!!... and we drank so much man, it was so shiok!
btw, did u noe tat Changi area really got gays?...kinda scary cos frm far hor, they look so female-shaped and chio (i'm dead serious) but it's really freaky lor cos they will "patrol" around... ok shall not elaborate anymore, it's giving me goosebumps...ugh

practically spent Wed and Thurs on food...esp on today, we ate every 2hrs... Macs, Cheng Tng, Noodles & etc etc. doubt i'll go fat though, Darren has super super high metabolism rate...
nothin much to talk abt Chalet lor, cos it's really routine...i mean, wat can u do ?
but hor... i found a new hobby... the beach was nearby our Chalet area, so we would go there every morning

HongSheng flew a kite yday morning, kinda funny seeing him run here and there trying to catch the wind...Haha
btw, the new hobby is collecting seashells...erm, not exactly common but i find it rather cool...when i was collectin them hor, i started singing a tune...then i asked God to keep tat tune in my head, hopin can use it to write songs...but i cant rmb it liao, diao...
think i got abit of inspiration...hopefully, i can use it for God and start writing songs...erm? let's see first ok?

anyway, i'm so tired...donno why i'm still up so late, ok lah i go liao! ciao!

{ 5:49 PM }

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

i'm here again...
apparently, i'm abit troubled...bcos of my indecisive-ness at things tat are happenin around me, esp towards the First 3mths Admission to JC

i've started thinkin abt it ever since i gotten the 7pts for Prelims (Praise the Lord for His Grace)...and it's kinda funny, cos before Prelims...i was depressed by the fact tat i might not be doin jus as well as before...but when i got 7pts, i was once totally in thinkin-mode cos i donno which JC to go to...
it has been my dream to go VJC (influenced by my bro)... and i've been aiming for it ever since who noes when, but tat i finally have the chance, i donno why i'm hesitatin...i feel like bangin my head against the wall lor, so many pple are longin for this score of 7 and i noe many pple wanna kill me for it, right Sarah?...HAHA, but i donno why i'm hesitatin lor...it's like i'm stuck in b/w happiness and frustration...ugh, i feel so weird right now

tml's is the choice liao, or so i heard...and i really donno which to choose, VJ or TJ ?...
help me analyse ya?

Option 1 : VJC
pros - Dream come true
- Gd Standard, which will benefit me during A's
cons - too stressful
- might be overly proud and confident

Option 2: TJC
pros - pple around me not as competitive
- music elective ! which means i can use PIANO !!! yay!
cons - ugly uniform...rather odd colour
- wont be as satisfied as i would be in VJ (duh...)

here's a small comparison b/w my 2 options lor...haiz, so how?...
i think the most impt factor to consider above those mentioned above is... ...
is whether it'll affect my Spiritual Walk, whether my studies become my 1st Love, whether i can cope with the stress level...let's not forget pple, i'm hardworkin...not smart, tat means i'll lose out to those frm VS, RI, RGS who enter VJ or TJ...
i really don wanna push God aside for my studies lor...i've been doin tat this yr and i always feel tat i let Laupa down bcos i couldnt give a 100% heart to Laupa...

hmmm...i'm jus askin for Prayers, pls pray tat God will either show me a 'V' or 'T' tonight as i sleep, haha....cos i really want God to make the choice for me, i don wanna make the wrong choice and regret nxt time... the Encounter made me realise one thing, it was how hungry i could get for God, and i want tat hunger ... and i want God to fill me with it and i would definitely not let anythin obstruct it lor
i will learn to trust...i will learn to listen...i will learn to look frm God's point of view rather than mine, so many times before whereby it's always been my way, my thuds, my decisions...i don want tat, it's a past i must throw away!...

Laupa, pls show me a letter ... funny as it may seem to ask for a letter frm God, but i'm dead serious here...

Lionel (or Danny?...cant rmb) once told me tat we 'suffer' or feel unhappy at times is bcos we humans, don listen to God and make the wrong choices, when we humans choose to say 'NO' to God's choices...i don want tat, i will let Laupa control it...afterall, He noes the best for me...

Proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the Lord with all your Heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your path straight"

how true... this has been my fav verse bcos each time i read, i feel tat sense of comfort tat God is in control and the simplest and only thing tat i needa do is TRUST HIM WHOLEHEARTEDLY...
and i will do tat...
i must...since i know tat God wont fail me...

Laupa, thx...

{ 4:22 PM }

Greetings to all...
haha, this is my first post and wat better way to start it off by mentionin abt ENCOUNTER !!!!
i gotta say...it was superb! the experience was totally wat i didnt expect it to be...i thud it would be like any other camp, but GOD felt so real throughout the entire 3days lor and i thank Him for tat...
i believe He has done a great work in me...although i would like to jot down every single event and session here, but i felt tat some stuff are personal so it's better kept inside of me ... but, i'll tell u guys one thing...GOD is so so so gd! i nvr felt so much of Him before lor, and it indeed an Experience tat totally blew me away...
to show how gd it was, let's count the no. of times i cried and cried and cried...think it was like countless?...haha...
btw...i'm having chalet tml til thurs! WOOHOO! although my physical body is breaking down with aching muscles in the groin/ butt/ calve (or is it calf ) areas...ouch, even having problems sitting down and standin up lor...
will be posting in afew days time...and i'll try to be obedient and post daily, but i doubt since hols got no special events

ironic as it seem: i'm missing exams... i jus feel so bored now, shoot...
maybe it's time to start doin the stuff tat i always wanted to do...

1) learn guitar on my own...heehee
2) spend more time with GOD
3) play more, watch more TV...duh, it's been mths since i last did them lor
4) hopefully...by faith... i can get GOD's inspiration and begin writing songs, and will be helpin Tor to write some as well...
5) get DE band back together and start practisin some songs... (tat is when Benita finishes her A's, Paul to finish his exams in Dec and Tor to be less busy).. gotta wait for a long time before we can really start practisin lor...shoot

and most imptly...start slackin...haha

anyway, i'm out...

{ 6:33 AM }

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

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Saturday, November 26, 2005

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Thursday, November 24, 2005

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Tuesday, November 22, 2005

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